Sunday evening at prayer, Keven Wilberding said some amazing things. I knew what he was talking about, but his perspective on it was awesome. It went from logos to rhema. He said that when we accept Christ, we are wiped clean. Or pasts are wiped clean. His example was trying to go back to something in the past, but it wasn’t there anymore.
So then I was thinking… If it’s all wiped clean, what if that means that all of my past relationships are really gone? I know that none of my friends from the past are really there anymore. Those relationships are gone. But what about my family? If they are poison to me and I know it, are they wiped clean?
It seems harsh, I know. But none of them asked me to stay.
None of them asked me to go, either. Nobody visited. Nobody called.
Was the relationship wiped clean when I accepted Christ? Was I just trying to look for something that wasn’t there by going back?
I know my original reason for going, I was running away from a problem. It’s easier than facing them, right? Well I made it worse. And them messed it up more by coming back.
I will not be defeated by this. I cannot be defeated. The battle was already won.
I know my future and it surely doesn’t include defeat.
I may not always feel like a conquerer, but I am. Already.
Therefore it’s 5:22 a.m. so I will retire to bed.