I’m not sure what exactly my mood is all about. It’s been pretty… “edgy” but more like. … happy/excited on the brink of ok.
Everything is totally different that I could have ever imagined. There is something new inside of me that I have never felt before.
It’s not like the happiness that I once thought was it. It’s a higher level, per say, of gladness. It’s an abiding joy, not a visiting happiness. I guess that’s a good way to put it. It is a joy that lives inside of me, whether I acknowledge it being there or not, it’s there. Unlike happiness that used to visit me.
It’s a joy that sticks around.
With everything that has happened lately, and it being the eve of a particular one year anniversary, I am still ‘with joy.’
Happiness can fade away, but joy sticks around, even when your whole world crashes down around you.
That’s the joy I have right now.
I may not understand everything that is going on in my life, situations, relationships etc. But I know that God has his hand in my life and He will take care of me.